This moment of gratitude came much earlier than I'm actually writing it, but I wasn't in a position to write much more than a note in my phone about it. Today I'm grateful for the simple act of support.
As anyone who has known me for any length of time over five years can tell you, I used to be the queen of healthy living. Some might even go as far as to say obsessively so, and honestly, they wouldn't be wrong. I lived and breathed nutrition and fitness, and it helped me lose one hundred pounds and ditch a life crippling disease along the way.
Flash forward to more recent life, and you'll find a version of myself that is struggling to embody the core value of health that I hold so dearly. Even my therapist will tell you, it's not a trend, it's a core value, an integral piece of who I am. Anyway, that's a whole other tangent.
I can't say I have really found a lot of people who love health and wellness the way I did (and still do), though I am fortunate enough to know a few. But regardless, healthy living wasn't really something I needed support in back then...unlike now.
It's been a hard realization to come to, that going this road alone is harder than it used to be. But now that it's out there, I can focus on today's gratitude: I'm grateful for the support I do have. When I told my mom my goal of getting back to healthy, she didn't scoff or mock, or laugh with disbelief. Instead, she said something so simple and matter-of-fact that it might go completely missed by someone else. She said, "I'm glad to hear it, I know how important it is to you. Let's start going to the gym together in the mornings."
That's it. That's the sentence that brought a wave of gratitude today. There was no overbearing advice, no cruelty or judgment...simply support. Let's do it. Here's a small thing we can do together, but the rest is up to you. Honestly, just hearing the support makes the rest of it so much easier. When you a live a life where you feel surrounded by encouragement to do the absolute opposite of what you're trying to accomplish, that one small kindness really can go a long way.
Can I do it alone? Sure, I did it before. But is it harder now? Admittedly yes. So, I'm grateful for acts of support. No matter how seemingly small. And I'm grateful for the breath of fresh air into my love of all things health.
and sidenote, we totally went to the gym this morning. #gymbros
Do something good for you.
-Dommie
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